Psychic Kin
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If you have attempted to fit whatever mold and failed to do so, you are probably lucky. You may be an exile of some sort, but you have sheltered your soul. There is an odd phenomenon that happens when one keeps trying to fit and fails. Even though the outcast is driven away, she is at the same time driven right into the arms of her psychic and true kin, whether these be a course of study, an art form, or a group of people. It is worse to stay where one does not belong at all than to wander about lost for a while and looking for the psychic and soulful kinship one requires. It is never a mistake to search for what one requires. Never.
There is something useful in all this torque and tension. Something in the duckling is being tempered, being made strong by this exile. While this situation is not one we would wish on anyone for any reason, its effect is similar to pure natural carbon under pressure producing diamonds... - Clarissa Pinkola Estes
I like this. Some days this feels true. Other days it seems dramatic and based in magical thinking.
For me, it is clear that there is no magical psychic kin... (wouldn’t that be suggesting some sort of utopian community?). No community / friend / family member or partner can be “on demand”. This is part of the work of the individual - to look to one’s own ability to cultivate inner loving parents and connect with Divine energy as needed. Psychic kin come and go, and though cherished, are not fixed and predictable.
The only utopian community I see is the one we have been given - our own bodies, our own energetic and biological systems. And the aim is not perfection!! The utopia is in the opportunities that lie in each imbalance, block and flaw (and the gifts that mirror these) - all of us have a unique system in this way.
Part of healing from self-abandonment can be deepening our connection to ourselves (the gestalt of our being) by way of language fluency of our energy body, remembering our neuro-biological nature and by inquiring into our soul responsibilities.
To live in surrender is to be open to what is present on this day and in this moment and to dance / relate with curiosity, with that.